As I laid in bed with Ruby (3.5yrs) tonight I had this overwhelming feeling of guilt wash over me. I couldn't remember the last time I'd just laid with her in the evening & had a chat. Obviously we chat during the day but most of the time I'm doing a million other things whist listening to her. Dealing with Oliver (7mths), cleaning, cooking, working, etc. But I'm not going to lie, a lot of the time I'm barely listening to her. As I laid there I couldn't help but think of all the time & attention she got before Oliver came along & feel guilty because she doesn't get that anymore.
With Oliver only being 7 months old & exclusively breast fed, he gets a lot of my time during the day. I guess I'm still trying to find that balance between both kids and that's ok. I had to take a moment afterwards to remind myself that I'm in no way neglecting Ruby. She gets everything she needs, we chat, we play & she's home with me 90% of the time. There's just another small human in the mix now too. Who honestly needs me more than she does at the moment.
I'm sharing this with you all because I'm sure theres millions of other mumma's out there feeling exactly the same.
Well mumma's, whether you're juggling 2, 3, 4 or more kiddies, know that you do not need to feel guilty. Your littlest babe may need you the most right now, but they too will grow into an independent toddler who can do things themselves too.
This year I'm going to make it a priority to spend some one on one time with Ruby every time Wayne is on days off. Whether it's taking her out somewhere or sitting with just her at home doing whatever she wants to do.
Do any other mumma's feel the same kind of guilt? What do you like to do with your kiddies when you spend one on one time with them?
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- Jade x